So, I didn't get cast in the play. I did make it to call backs though. I did my best, but I'm still disappointed. I'm not discouraged, just disappointed. It really meant a lot to me, but I'm not bitter (I swear). I'm actually sitting backstage right now, Mariner is on its second week of performances and after tonight there are two more shows then we do strike on Sunday. That means we'll be breaking down the stage and cleaning up so that we can start building the set for The Imaginary Invalid. I was doing alright, I hadn't cried or anything. Then I talked to my dad tonight. He asked me how auditions went and I told him I hadn't made the play and it seemed like he didn't even care. I know I shouldn't take it personally, but it still hurt my feelings. Then of course I started crying while I was trying to set out the props, sweep the stage, make sure the pea souper (dry ice fogger) was working and make sure everything is in place.
I don't really know the point of this blog, I just wanted to talk about it.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
So I just auditioned. Scary shit man. Scary shit. I've got to get over this stage-fright stuff. I feel like I did alright, but that my nerves were showing in a big way. Everybody laughed when they were supposed to and everything, but at one point my right knee was shaking really bad. I took the long way home after auditions. The long way being way out of the way just to calm down. I was nervous before, but I really wanted to throw up and cry afterward. Keep your fingers crossed guys.
Love,
LTM
Love,
LTM
Friday, February 6, 2009
If I kiss you where it's sore, will you feel better?
Hi Everybody!
I have 2 and a half hours before I need to be back at school. Being in theater is ridiculously time consuming and I haven't had more than about 10 minutes to myself in a long time. Think about that. Ten minutes isn't even long enough to masturbate properly...maybe that's why I've been so edgy lately.
Anywhozzle.
The play opened last night. (YAY!) The San Antonio College Theatre and Speech department would like to invite you to see Mariner, a story about Christopher Columbus. Trust me, it's great. I'm on the props crew for this production. ("Oh Lauren, those shears you made look so life like!" "Oh, thank you! You're so sweet!") And I tried to run a fog machine, but I think it's not working right. The fire alarm went off during Act One last night. (I heard that it wasn't from the fog machine, but from some contractors on the roof.) So everyone had to leave the theater and had to stand around for a while until "they" got everything reset. We came back in and the play went on like nothing had happened. The actors in this production are really great. I'm doing props again tonight and next Thursday and Friday. I'm really enjoying myself and meeting a lot of awesome people. Everyone is shocked to hear I'm married, but even more shocked when I tell them I'm 24. I keep getting told I look 19. I don't know how I feel about this. Obviously it's a good thing to look younger than you are, but I want people to take me seriously. Ya know?
On Monday I'll be auditioning for The Imaginary Invalid and I am terrified. Not so much that I'll fuck up my audition or anything, but that because this production is going to have a VERY small cast and since everybody and their mother is also auditioning I'm afraid there won't be room for me. It's not that I don't like Technical crew or anything, I just want to act dammit!
I've got my monologue all ready! I'm so excited about it. I think it's going to be a lot of fun.
I've gone ADD, sorry....
Love you guys!
I have 2 and a half hours before I need to be back at school. Being in theater is ridiculously time consuming and I haven't had more than about 10 minutes to myself in a long time. Think about that. Ten minutes isn't even long enough to masturbate properly...maybe that's why I've been so edgy lately.
Anywhozzle.
The play opened last night. (YAY!) The San Antonio College Theatre and Speech department would like to invite you to see Mariner, a story about Christopher Columbus. Trust me, it's great. I'm on the props crew for this production. ("Oh Lauren, those shears you made look so life like!" "Oh, thank you! You're so sweet!") And I tried to run a fog machine, but I think it's not working right. The fire alarm went off during Act One last night. (I heard that it wasn't from the fog machine, but from some contractors on the roof.) So everyone had to leave the theater and had to stand around for a while until "they" got everything reset. We came back in and the play went on like nothing had happened. The actors in this production are really great. I'm doing props again tonight and next Thursday and Friday. I'm really enjoying myself and meeting a lot of awesome people. Everyone is shocked to hear I'm married, but even more shocked when I tell them I'm 24. I keep getting told I look 19. I don't know how I feel about this. Obviously it's a good thing to look younger than you are, but I want people to take me seriously. Ya know?
On Monday I'll be auditioning for The Imaginary Invalid and I am terrified. Not so much that I'll fuck up my audition or anything, but that because this production is going to have a VERY small cast and since everybody and their mother is also auditioning I'm afraid there won't be room for me. It's not that I don't like Technical crew or anything, I just want to act dammit!
I've got my monologue all ready! I'm so excited about it. I think it's going to be a lot of fun.
I've gone ADD, sorry....
Love you guys!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
oooh pretty colors
I've told everyone at this point that I color. I love crayons! I finally got my scanner working again so now I'm going to put up some of my most recent creations! (insert evil laugh here) The scanner doesn't really pick up the crayons as well as I'd like, but what can you do? Besides, if you assholes would ever decide to come visit us down here in San Antone, you can see them first hand on our living room wall.
First up, a little something for the BHS fans out there: Lady Doja
Next is : Rollerskating Genie! She'll make all your wishes come true!
And now, Jeremy's favorite:
I didn't really think this one needed a title.
Now I have two more that need titles, suggestions are welcome and encouraged.
And now my second favorite (Lady D is my #1)
First up, a little something for the BHS fans out there: Lady Doja
Next is : Rollerskating Genie! She'll make all your wishes come true!
And now, Jeremy's favorite:
I didn't really think this one needed a title.
Now I have two more that need titles, suggestions are welcome and encouraged.
And now my second favorite (Lady D is my #1)
Friday, January 9, 2009
Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
So it's a new year.
I know everyone makes resolutions but I've had some revelations.
There are things about me and my life I want to be different. I want certain things from my life. I want more from my life.
And in order to get these things, to change these things, I have to do it myself.
I'm starting classes at San Antonio College on Monday. This means a lot things are going to be different. I'm going to try to limit my non-school related internet usage to 1 hour on school days. I will not be going out on a "school night" (as Brian and Abbie say) unless it's Jeremy's work related. I think I may stop smoking during the week too. If I want to do well, I have to take school seriously. I have to grow the fuck up. I'm not going to get all boring or anything, don't worry. You'll still have your Lauren on the weekends, but please respect my dedication to school, I want my life to be better.
I've changed my eating habits. As a result of being piss-poor for the last week or so, my food portions have been drastically reduced. Now I can't eat as much as i used to. Case in point-Jeremy and I went to this party for a film festival that's being held here in San Antonio last night and they served fajitas. I love fajitas! And there was this great rice and amazing refried beans, it was great! Anyway, they gave everyone 2 fajita tacos and beans and rice. I ate about half of my food and then just couldn't eat anymore. It wasn't so much that I was full, more that I ate until I didn't want to eat anymore.
I'm taking steps to take better care of myself and my husband. Jeremy and I have been married for 3 years now and these have been the best and hardest 3 years of my life. We are getting better about cleaning the house and paying our bills on time (what a concept, huh?).
All of these changes I am making/have made are really just the symptoms of me growing up. I'm 24 and no one is going to live my life for me or take care of me (except jeremy of course) or make my life what I want it to be.
When I was little, I used to think of myself grown up and glamorous. Recently I realized, I am grown up.
It's time to get glamorous, y'all.
I know everyone makes resolutions but I've had some revelations.
There are things about me and my life I want to be different. I want certain things from my life. I want more from my life.
And in order to get these things, to change these things, I have to do it myself.
I'm starting classes at San Antonio College on Monday. This means a lot things are going to be different. I'm going to try to limit my non-school related internet usage to 1 hour on school days. I will not be going out on a "school night" (as Brian and Abbie say) unless it's Jeremy's work related. I think I may stop smoking during the week too. If I want to do well, I have to take school seriously. I have to grow the fuck up. I'm not going to get all boring or anything, don't worry. You'll still have your Lauren on the weekends, but please respect my dedication to school, I want my life to be better.
I've changed my eating habits. As a result of being piss-poor for the last week or so, my food portions have been drastically reduced. Now I can't eat as much as i used to. Case in point-Jeremy and I went to this party for a film festival that's being held here in San Antonio last night and they served fajitas. I love fajitas! And there was this great rice and amazing refried beans, it was great! Anyway, they gave everyone 2 fajita tacos and beans and rice. I ate about half of my food and then just couldn't eat anymore. It wasn't so much that I was full, more that I ate until I didn't want to eat anymore.
I'm taking steps to take better care of myself and my husband. Jeremy and I have been married for 3 years now and these have been the best and hardest 3 years of my life. We are getting better about cleaning the house and paying our bills on time (what a concept, huh?).
All of these changes I am making/have made are really just the symptoms of me growing up. I'm 24 and no one is going to live my life for me or take care of me (except jeremy of course) or make my life what I want it to be.
When I was little, I used to think of myself grown up and glamorous. Recently I realized, I am grown up.
It's time to get glamorous, y'all.
Friday, December 12, 2008
My Favorites of 2008
Last night, Jeremy was working on his top ten albums of 2008 for that paper and I decided to make my own. It's not in any order, it's just a list of albums and movies I enjoyed in 2008. *Not everything on my favorites of 2008 came out in 2008.
Janelle Monae - This bitch is awesome. Janelle Monae is like a female Andre 3000.
Jeremy describes her music as Prog-R&B. I knew I loved me some Prog, but I had no idea it could be like this. Her album (more of and EP, really) is called "Metropolis: The Chase Suite" and listening to it really is like listening to a symphony (the first five songs anyway). Her myspace page (http://www.myspace.com/janellemonae) has a six minute "short film" for the song "Many Moons." It's all about a robot who falls in love with a human and so must be destroyed. The entire album flows seamlessly through the movements and the theme (yes of robots in love in the future) is carried well throughout. There is an ARIA! Monae's amazing, soul-insprir(ing)ed voice floats for the most beautiful 1:35 of 2008, this is one case where I'm ok with an auto-tuner. I know it sounds super geeky and lame, but it truly is an amazing, fun album.
Katy Perry - I know I already wrote about her, but I really, really like this album.
MGMT- Their album "Oracular Spectacular" was a good friend this summer. I really like their blend of like the Scissor Sisters and freak-folk. (this is based on my limited understanding of that term) It's great pool-side mp3 player material and not bad make out music either (more m.o.m. later). I like the spaceyness of it, it's just great to relax to, and maybe a little dancing to "Electric Feel."
Okkerville River - Thier 2008 album "The Stand Ins" is a companion to last year's "The Stage Names" and I've decided that 2007's album was better. When Jeremy first introduced me to Okkerville, I wasn't really feeling it, you know? But over the years I've gotten to really like Will Sheff's voice. The songs on "The Stage Names" sound so happy and fun, but if you listen to the lyrics, they're absolutely heartbreaking.
Black Mountain- As I said in "Reasons I will always be my 14-year-old self," I love really great classic rock. Black Mountain's "In The Future" is more like a worm hole to the past. The album came out early last year but I really got in to it after we moved to San Antonio. The very first song "Stormy High," makes me think of Janis Joplin and sex. This is grade A make out music. 100% Approved for foreplay.
The Dodos! - That's my !, not theirs, thier name is just The Dodos. Their album "Visiter" from this year is really great reading or bubble bath music. Kind-of folky, kind of like Animal Collective but less with fewer personalities, though no less character.
Department of Eagles - "In Ear Park" This trippy '60s throw-back album feels like that time I was sitting in the grass across the street from the entrance to Niagara Falls in Toronto when I was a freshman in high school. It was in May so it was warm but it's way up north so it was more like spring than summer, just humid enough, clear and sunny with a light breeze. I think colors are brighter in Canada, that's how I remember it anyway.
M83 - "Saturdays = Youth" This album came out right at the beginning of the summer I think. This is more of 2008's great make out music. I reccomend it for pool-side reading.
Human Highway - "Moody Motorcycle" This is my token "indie" album.
So here are other albums/artists I liked, but can't think of anything to say about them:
Vampire Weekend
Can
True Stories by the Talking Heads (the movie and the album)
Fleet Foxes
First Aid Kit (get ready for them in 2009)
MOVIES!
Some of the movies I liked in 2008 (short list, I can't think of a lot right now)
Synecdoche, NY - Absolutely brilliant, but as Jeremy pointed out, it may not have great rewatchability.
Pineapple Express - Of course :)
Space Chimps - Monkeys in Space!
HellBoy 2 - Seriously, I watched this every day for a week.
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince - Oh yeah, Warner Brothers made enough money off of The Dark Knight to postpone the release of HP5. Thanks a lot, Batman.
So I know this kind of petered out here at the end. I lost the steam and never really got it back. Hopefully when school starts back I'll get a surge of creativity. Have a great 2009!
Love,
Lauren
Janelle Monae - This bitch is awesome. Janelle Monae is like a female Andre 3000.
Jeremy describes her music as Prog-R&B. I knew I loved me some Prog, but I had no idea it could be like this. Her album (more of and EP, really) is called "Metropolis: The Chase Suite" and listening to it really is like listening to a symphony (the first five songs anyway). Her myspace page (http://www.myspace.com/janellemonae) has a six minute "short film" for the song "Many Moons." It's all about a robot who falls in love with a human and so must be destroyed. The entire album flows seamlessly through the movements and the theme (yes of robots in love in the future) is carried well throughout. There is an ARIA! Monae's amazing, soul-insprir(ing)ed voice floats for the most beautiful 1:35 of 2008, this is one case where I'm ok with an auto-tuner. I know it sounds super geeky and lame, but it truly is an amazing, fun album.
Katy Perry - I know I already wrote about her, but I really, really like this album.
MGMT- Their album "Oracular Spectacular" was a good friend this summer. I really like their blend of like the Scissor Sisters and freak-folk. (this is based on my limited understanding of that term) It's great pool-side mp3 player material and not bad make out music either (more m.o.m. later). I like the spaceyness of it, it's just great to relax to, and maybe a little dancing to "Electric Feel."
Okkerville River - Thier 2008 album "The Stand Ins" is a companion to last year's "The Stage Names" and I've decided that 2007's album was better. When Jeremy first introduced me to Okkerville, I wasn't really feeling it, you know? But over the years I've gotten to really like Will Sheff's voice. The songs on "The Stage Names" sound so happy and fun, but if you listen to the lyrics, they're absolutely heartbreaking.
Black Mountain- As I said in "Reasons I will always be my 14-year-old self," I love really great classic rock. Black Mountain's "In The Future" is more like a worm hole to the past. The album came out early last year but I really got in to it after we moved to San Antonio. The very first song "Stormy High," makes me think of Janis Joplin and sex. This is grade A make out music. 100% Approved for foreplay.
The Dodos! - That's my !, not theirs, thier name is just The Dodos. Their album "Visiter" from this year is really great reading or bubble bath music. Kind-of folky, kind of like Animal Collective but less with fewer personalities, though no less character.
Department of Eagles - "In Ear Park" This trippy '60s throw-back album feels like that time I was sitting in the grass across the street from the entrance to Niagara Falls in Toronto when I was a freshman in high school. It was in May so it was warm but it's way up north so it was more like spring than summer, just humid enough, clear and sunny with a light breeze. I think colors are brighter in Canada, that's how I remember it anyway.
M83 - "Saturdays = Youth" This album came out right at the beginning of the summer I think. This is more of 2008's great make out music. I reccomend it for pool-side reading.
Human Highway - "Moody Motorcycle" This is my token "indie" album.
So here are other albums/artists I liked, but can't think of anything to say about them:
Vampire Weekend
Can
True Stories by the Talking Heads (the movie and the album)
Fleet Foxes
First Aid Kit (get ready for them in 2009)
MOVIES!
Some of the movies I liked in 2008 (short list, I can't think of a lot right now)
Synecdoche, NY - Absolutely brilliant, but as Jeremy pointed out, it may not have great rewatchability.
Pineapple Express - Of course :)
Space Chimps - Monkeys in Space!
HellBoy 2 - Seriously, I watched this every day for a week.
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince - Oh yeah, Warner Brothers made enough money off of The Dark Knight to postpone the release of HP5. Thanks a lot, Batman.
So I know this kind of petered out here at the end. I lost the steam and never really got it back. Hopefully when school starts back I'll get a surge of creativity. Have a great 2009!
Love,
Lauren
Friday, December 5, 2008
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